Sunday, July 27, 2008

Things can seem to be going for the worse,

I feel like life is less a gift and more a curse,

But then I close my eyes and think for a while,

I remember the little things that make me smile...

Seeing the rain fall while the sun's still shining,

Normally separate, the two at that time entwining,

A sunset in the horizon at the end of the day,

The painting in the sky I wish would always stay,

Relaxing on a cloudy day with a breeze in the air,

The wind taking my worries leaving me without a care.

Hearing from someone that I figured forgot about me,

Being remembered always fills my heart with such glee,

My friends that believed in me when I had no will to,

Their kind words and support showed me what to do,

They've brought a smile, whether I was happy or mad.

The smile you gave to me that day, us hand in hand...

That was the closest I felt to heaven while being on land,

Hearing you whispering those three words in my ear,

The one thing from you that I wanted to hear,

Having someone that actually cared whether I lived or died,

That feeling, I believe, I could never forget, even if had tried.

It's the little things in nature that place me in a peaceful state,

It's the little things from friends that give me kindness,not hate,

It's the little things while in love that made my life feel so great.

It's surprising how things so small can make life so wonderful.

This inspires me to believe change is the only thing constant…

MY WAY OF EXPRESSING FEELINGS TO 7-ANGLES, FRIENDS FROM MY HOME TOWN, HOSTEL MATES, PG FRIENDS...LAST BUT AWESOME FRIENDS FROM AMS.. N ONE PERSON NT TALKING TO ME.... THNX FOR MAKING THINGS SO SPECIAL....

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Dissolved thoughts...

Fade in

Fade out

Fade in

Fade out

Just fade

Fade from my life again

On the sands of timeLeave me in peace,

And free of pain You don't have time for me

And when I try to help,You turn away

Fade as sand drifts away between fingers,
Fade as sunlight swipes away every evening,
Fade as my name fades in the seashore,
Fade as memory fades away,
Fade as eyesight fades in fog.

Fade away into the dark

Hide in the shadows of the park
Fade away to nothingness

That’s the way life goes

Fade away into the background

Make sure no-one sees you

Forever locked away

Numb and silenced by your own thoughts

your voice is nothing but a whisper Carried by a winters wind

I hope you had the time of your life…

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Pain...

Can you see all the pain?
Hidden just behind my eyes
Can you sense all the fear?
Producing so many of my lies

It binds me to my hate
The past can not be out run
Uncovering it would reveal too much
As long as I hide it your impression of me won’t be jaded

What is it that you see?
I feel like I’ve been lying
I’ve been nothing but honest
Why can’t I stop all the crying?

I am bound to my mistakes
Tormented by darkness each day
I am tied to guilt and shame
Memories that won’t slip away

I am tired of broken promises
Plagued by all I could not give
I am weary of all the lies
Anger that won’t let me live

I am lost inside myself
Shattered by things I’ve done
I am hiding from fear
Reminders make me run

Your words are like daggers
Causing a new world of pain
The wounds left won’t heal
My heart you have slain

Your words swallow me whole
Echoing to me from far away
Sending shivers of sadness
Bringing more hate every day

Your words are a shadow
Unshakeable in my mind
Haunting me with every step
Killing all that’s left inside


Your words continue to scare
Holding my heart too tight
Binding me to all my fears
Chasing away any light


You can’t see what I hide
I’ve been killing myself

The sun now gone forever
Echoes of a time from the past
Rain drenching all my dreams
This pain I know won’t last.
Coz it's my routine now & i am enjoying it...............

People say everything is unreliable even memory...THINK AGAIN!!!

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Alcohol and crashes
she walked away again...singing “ashes, ashes”
and we all fall from time to time,
learning to pay ignorance like riches for the crime,
knowledge, money for the mind
I hope that you’re okay I hope you haven’t lied “stay alive”
she whispered she walked away
he missed her but he could still hear her singing ...
“ashes, ashes... "that’s all we really are.

ASHES ASHES LOST IN THE ASHES TIME……